The White Bunny

Honestly, right now I don't feel much happening inside. I guess when u had that same pain over and over again as the year goes by, you will end up feeling nothing. I do get mad, I do get upset but at the end of the day, my conscious inside always tell me that this is nothing. I think I have been sabotaging my own happiness unconsciously throughout the years. I am someone who can easily fall in love with someone and this is what most of my close friends said about me. Probably the longing feeling of attachment toward others make me feel this way. But for me, now I would still prefer a quiet time at home, then hanging out with anyone. But that doesn't mean, I don't enjoy them, I do, it's just that as you grew older, your circle of friends changes through time. Some got married, some have kids, move to another place and etc. You still keep in touch with them but its not the same as before. You won't simply share things with them anymore because deep inside, you know th...

Hi there. Well, this is a new post regarding Sagittarius man. I love reading this kind of stuff because it helps me to know myself better in a way. It's not going to be 100% accurate but I would say 70% of it is quite true. The topic of the blog today would be Sagittarius man in love and how much it reflects about myself. "A Sagittarius man will never be satisfied with looks alone" The mind is key for him. He has high standards in a partner. They are almost ideals. You will have to have great features physically, mentally and emotionally. He likes to be challenged and hates boredom. You can never rest on your laurels or get in a comfort zone with him. This is quite true for myself. For me, the beauty on the outside is temporary and fragile, which is why I have always interested with people who have unique personality. Someone who is the opposite of me or someone who challenged me is definitely going to pique my curiosity towards her.I am someone who is easily dis...

Hi there. Basically this post is a letter to myself so I can keep my head and heart straight back in the game called life. 2019 started with a good vibe. I have left all the bad things, the painful past and everything else that hurts me in the past years. Starting up slowly, one day at a time, though my depression and anxiety problem still kicks in every now and then. I read it's good to write because it helps to reduce the over thinking, the feeling of lost, that suicidal feeling you know. There are more stories on this which I'll share in the future. It's now November and a lot of things have happened this past few months. Looking back at all the photos for the past 29 years I have lived, really brings me back to the memory lane. I tried to be the person whom I was before, the randomness of doing things, the shy innocent kid that I'm used to be back then, the one that do random act of kindness and trust others as innocent as a child can be. But that was all in the p...

You Will Fall In Love 3 Times in Your Life While we may fall in love with many people over the span of our lifetime, we can break down the type of love we experience with these people into three categories.  Because even though people are different, our reasons for falling in love with the one can be counted on three fingers. This is definitely true if you think about it deeply. First Love when we are young. You probably had your first crush as a starry-eyed teenager. This usually happens in high school and it’s usually innocent but intense. Everyone experiences  the magic of young love . It is the sort of love that you may have entered into to conform with the crowd.  High-school lovers want everyone to see that their relationship is perfect, even though in reality it is far from the truth. Young people have a need for social acceptance; as such, how others viewed you may have been more important than how you felt.  But for me, it was definitely an innocen...

Hello there. It's been quite some time since I post up something. The last post was on 14 March 2017. I have been doing quite a lot of stuff and a lot of things have happened since then. How i wish i could write it all but sometimes, some things are better kept private because of how precious it is. Probably some updates on the people around me. My close friend Saiful got married , Yusri got a girlfriend, Yan got engaged, Alvin and Ireconcile back as good friends, enjoying our talk about coffee and lastly Syaza living the best moment of her life raising her son. Joanne my lovable friend got married and have a son now. I'm so happy for her, the people who are always there when I'm at my lowest point,  Hisham and Husnisah still the same as always, scolding me for the bad decision i made in the past years but I love the two of them. My little sister got married this year and my big brother got a daughter. My older sister is recovering and getting better Alhamdulillah...

It's been almost 7 years since I started blogging again. How childish it was for me to write those stuff before but I know that every single thing that I wrote was a lesson for me. The only reason I'm writing again is because I think that I have to write something about this piled up feelings in my heart and what better way of doing it then writing.  Lato, it means summer in Polish. The very reason why I'm writing again. All the hints keep showing me about summer and for me summer means love. A girl like summer, so sweet yet strong, so cheerful and kind, the kind of summer that I'm looking for. I met summer quite early this year I guess, metaphorically speaking. She's one of a kind, someone who is strong but gentle deep inside. If I were to describe her, she would be a box full with endless surprises and you wouldn't know what you're going to get next. I love the fact that she have quite a charming smile and that's the one thing that I could...

Truthfully, i don't know how long have it been since i started writing again. This is my first post for the year 2014 which is already going to be over soon.  I have always been the most clueless and confused when i fall in love with someone. This have happened over and over again. I don't think i will be able to handle the rejection, the breakup and the fight anymore. I have gone through more than enough. Family, friends and lover are the most important things in my life.I have learned the value of relationship and responsibility for such a long time. Every single time it changed a small part inside me and i am getting further and further away from my real self. I am not emotional and i don't intend to disturb people with my problems. I know that people only  listens but i don't think that really care about it. I am going to travel around the world after this and i won't be back for quite sometime after i have solved everything in Miri. I will start off with Singa...

I thought its over. I went to see a movie with her and one other friend. She picks me up and we talk in the car.  We arrive there early and I thought that maybe the other friend is there already. However, actually there are only the two of us at the sushi king. I felt really nervous.. is it because I still have feelings for her. Omg! She paid for the movie and also for the sushi. We spend quite sometime there and I felt like we are on a date. The only reason im not being a gentlemen to her is because I don't want  her to know that I still have feelings for her. Damn it. Why can't I say that I like her straight in the face.  Uhhuhu. I said that for me agf and also a wife is different.  I wonder if she understood what I meant.  A girlfren is a wife. The reason its different is that I dont have any bond with her. In other words, when I think she as my gf I am serious and commited of marrying her. I wish she can read my mind.  Urghhhhhhhhh!

Today i see her again this time with chocolate in my hands. LOL. I am a coward because i cant give her the chocolate myself. I couldn't bring myself to see her though she smiles a lot when she passing by my cubicle. OMG! I passed the choc to my sis so that she passed it to her. She really likes it though and i'm glad i did it.  ohhh today is a very busy day. I have lots of meeting and a lot of work to be done. How i wish i can work with her near her cubicle ~ LOL. Whatever it is, i should take it slow in knowing her. There is no need to rush right ? Love will comes eventually~ p.s. 15 days of getting to know her

Well i got to see her for the first time after 3 weeks, oh she is so cute with that purple shirt. First, i went to pick up the flowers that my friend ordered for me yesterday and put in the box. However, when i went there the funny thing is that the box is twice bigger than the bouquet. LOL. I went out again to find a proper bag to put the flowers. ahha I found it though but the roses still can be seen haha. She called me and said that she was nervous and asked if she can bring a friend to come together. So cute hiding under the blanket calling me just because she was nervous going on a date with me today. I said yes she can tag along just to let her feel comfortable. I went to Parkson and bought tickets for the movie Riddick for three. I brought the bouquet with me and kept it at the cashier that thinking of surprising her after the movie.  While waiting for them to come i went to the arcade and played all kind of games for about 40 minutes i think beating all those kids. L...

What happens when two friends go on a date? haha well i'm going to experience that tomorrow. She's a colleague of mine but in a different department. I just came back from offshore visit after 3 weeks and it have been really tiring. Lavinia sounds like Avril Lavigne hahah.. She got a cool name seriously. arghhh what to do what to do.. I am going out tomorrow. I bought a dozen of roses and put it in a box. I also bought a teddy bear hoping she would likes it. I'm giving her flowers because she said she haven't receive any flowers yet this year. I'm giving her teddy bear because she is like a kid and a cute one. I'm bringing my instax camera planning to take pictures tomorrow. Ergghh I'm too nervous and too excited about this. Oh Whyyy? Well this reminds me of a song. "If We'd Never Met" If we'd never met, I'd probably be  wandering aimlessly if we'd never met, this life, no I just wouldn't get what I wanted out of i...

This is me now!

Tonight post is about memories..Something that i really don't like. I read all my past blogs and it seems that i should have continue blogging. It likes a life journal of mine. Anything particular that i do and share should be recorded somewhere. What happens if my future self 3 years later reading this ? Did i achieve what i want and what i plan to do?? i think i should write a letter to future me . 

Hi guys, I'm back. LOL. Its been quite sometime since i wrote something. I have been busy planning my life and how to go the point that i want to achieve in life. Well its been quite amazing how i manage to stand still with my principles in life even though some of it seems to change a bit. Well what should i talk aah?? I'm still thinking about what to do. Well i think i should update here anything i have in my mind. JUST want to say

This post is a special one and it’s about a sweet, cute and adorable girl. She is a real sweetheart even though at first we always argue eheehe. If I want to describe her I would say she is quite stubborn one same as me. Hahaa ! But sometimes she can be as gentle as a flower bud and can be so easily be hurt if not hold carefully. She is not just somebody that I ran into but a really special one for me. She is really interesting for me to know and I am going to keep getting to know her not just now but forever. This remind me to one of the quote that I used to love last time “ Getting to know someone does not end when u have her in life but it’s a never ending learning because you’re going to find out something that you didn’t know about her every single day for the rest of your life with her ”. Nice quote right? Hehehe Well for me, I only got one thing to say, I really hope this will continue until the sun loses its light to shine and the moon starts to cry because they are n...

Oh yeah, exactly at 3.00 p.m .  , the event started..wOOO~ The ANNIVERSARY of ORGA STUDIO . They are 10 band participated in the event and all of them are metal and rock band. Our band is the only indie British Rock and Roll band. Oh yea UNDOREDO that’s our band name. Well actually this band only started recently which is at the end of last year (2011) and I started to join it on March 2012 as the second vocalist. So in other words I have train from zero to become a vocalist hahaha. Well at least the event today is really fun even though we encounter a few problems. My microphone got a problem and the sound that it produces is not loud enough forcing me to use full volume of my voice adohai~ and even the first vocalist have to go all out also because the microphone is not loud enough but at least its louder than mine. Next, the drumstick of the drummer broken during the last song hahaha well u got to guess what he did to play. After that during the gig the bassist and also ...

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