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Deja Vu

I thought its over. I went to see a movie with her and one other friend. She picks me up and we talk in the car.  We arrive there early and I thought that maybe the other friend is there already. However, actually there are only the two of us at the sushi king. I felt really nervous.. is it because I still have feelings for her. Omg! She paid for the movie and also for the sushi. We spend quite sometime there and I felt like we are on a date. The only reason im not being a gentlemen to her is because I don't want  her to know that I still have feelings for her. Damn it. Why can't I say that I like her straight in the face.  Uhhuhu. I said that for me agf and also a wife is different.  I wonder if she understood what I meant.  A girlfren is a wife. The reason its different is that I dont have any bond with her. In other words, when I think she as my gf I am serious and commited of marrying her. I wish she can read my mind.  Urghhhhhhhhh!

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