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My thoughts about 2019

Honestly, right now I don't feel much happening inside. I guess when u had that same pain over and over again as the year goes by, you will end up feeling nothing. I do get mad, I do get upset but at the end of the day, my conscious inside always tell me that this is nothing. I think I have been sabotaging my own happiness unconsciously throughout the years. I am someone who can easily fall in love with someone and this is what most of my close friends said about me. Probably the longing feeling of attachment toward others make me feel this way. But for me, now I would still prefer a quiet time at home, then hanging out with anyone. But that doesn't mean, I don't enjoy them, I do, it's just that as you grew older, your circle of friends changes through time. Some got married, some have kids, move to another place and etc. You still keep in touch with them but its not the same as before. You won't simply share things with them anymore because deep inside, you know th
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Sagittarius Man

Hi there. Well, this is a new post regarding Sagittarius man. I love reading this kind of stuff because it helps me to know myself better in a way. It's not going to be 100% accurate but I would say 70% of it is quite true. The topic of the blog today would be Sagittarius man in love and how much it reflects about myself. "A Sagittarius man will never be satisfied with looks alone" The mind is key for him. He has high standards in a partner. They are almost ideals. You will have to have great features physically, mentally and emotionally. He likes to be challenged and hates boredom. You can never rest on your laurels or get in a comfort zone with him. This is quite true for myself. For me, the beauty on the outside is temporary and fragile, which is why I have always interested with people who have unique personality. Someone who is the opposite of me or someone who challenged me is definitely going to pique my curiosity towards her.I am someone who is easily dis

Journal 06/11/2019 12:13 AM

Hi there. Basically this post is a letter to myself so I can keep my head and heart straight back in the game called life. 2019 started with a good vibe. I have left all the bad things, the painful past and everything else that hurts me in the past years. Starting up slowly, one day at a time, though my depression and anxiety problem still kicks in every now and then. I read it's good to write because it helps to reduce the over thinking, the feeling of lost, that suicidal feeling you know. There are more stories on this which I'll share in the future. It's now November and a lot of things have happened this past few months. Looking back at all the photos for the past 29 years I have lived, really brings me back to the memory lane. I tried to be the person whom I was before, the randomness of doing things, the shy innocent kid that I'm used to be back then, the one that do random act of kindness and trust others as innocent as a child can be. But that was all in the p

The Love Timeline

You Will Fall In Love 3 Times in Your Life While we may fall in love with many people over the span of our lifetime, we can break down the type of love we experience with these people into three categories.  Because even though people are different, our reasons for falling in love with the one can be counted on three fingers. This is definitely true if you think about it deeply. First Love when we are young. You probably had your first crush as a starry-eyed teenager. This usually happens in high school and it’s usually innocent but intense. Everyone experiences  the magic of young love . It is the sort of love that you may have entered into to conform with the crowd.  High-school lovers want everyone to see that their relationship is perfect, even though in reality it is far from the truth. Young people have a need for social acceptance; as such, how others viewed you may have been more important than how you felt.  But for me, it was definitely an innocent one. I fall in lo

2019

Hello there. It's been quite some time since I post up something. The last post was on 14 March 2017. I have been doing quite a lot of stuff and a lot of things have happened since then. How i wish i could write it all but sometimes, some things are better kept private because of how precious it is. Probably some updates on the people around me. My close friend Saiful got married , Yusri got a girlfriend, Yan got engaged, Alvin and Ireconcile back as good friends, enjoying our talk about coffee and lastly Syaza living the best moment of her life raising her son. Joanne my lovable friend got married and have a son now. I'm so happy for her, the people who are always there when I'm at my lowest point,  Hisham and Husnisah still the same as always, scolding me for the bad decision i made in the past years but I love the two of them. My little sister got married this year and my big brother got a daughter. My older sister is recovering and getting better Alhamdulillah

LATO Comes Again

It's been almost 7 years since I started blogging again. How childish it was for me to write those stuff before but I know that every single thing that I wrote was a lesson for me. The only reason I'm writing again is because I think that I have to write something about this piled up feelings in my heart and what better way of doing it then writing.  Lato, it means summer in Polish. The very reason why I'm writing again. All the hints keep showing me about summer and for me summer means love. A girl like summer, so sweet yet strong, so cheerful and kind, the kind of summer that I'm looking for. I met summer quite early this year I guess, metaphorically speaking. She's one of a kind, someone who is strong but gentle deep inside. If I were to describe her, she would be a box full with endless surprises and you wouldn't know what you're going to get next. I love the fact that she have quite a charming smile and that's the one thing that I could

I am a traveler

Truthfully, i don't know how long have it been since i started writing again. This is my first post for the year 2014 which is already going to be over soon.  I have always been the most clueless and confused when i fall in love with someone. This have happened over and over again. I don't think i will be able to handle the rejection, the breakup and the fight anymore. I have gone through more than enough. Family, friends and lover are the most important things in my life.I have learned the value of relationship and responsibility for such a long time. Every single time it changed a small part inside me and i am getting further and further away from my real self. I am not emotional and i don't intend to disturb people with my problems. I know that people only  listens but i don't think that really care about it. I am going to travel around the world after this and i won't be back for quite sometime after i have solved everything in Miri. I will start off with Singa