The White Bunny

I thought its over. I went to see a movie with her and one other friend. She picks me up and we talk in the car.  We arrive there early and I thought that maybe the other friend is there already. However, actually there are only the two of us at the sushi king. I felt really nervous.. is it because I still have feelings for her. Omg! She paid for the movie and also for the sushi. We spend quite sometime there and I felt like we are on a date. The only reason im not being a gentlemen to her is because I don't want  her to know that I still have feelings for her. Damn it. Why can't I say that I like her straight in the face.  Uhhuhu. I said that for me agf and also a wife is different.  I wonder if she understood what I meant.  A girlfren is a wife. The reason its different is that I dont have any bond with her. In other words, when I think she as my gf I am serious and commited of marrying her. I wish she can read my mind.  Urghhhhhhhhh!

Today i see her again this time with chocolate in my hands. LOL. I am a coward because i cant give her the chocolate myself. I couldn't bring myself to see her though she smiles a lot when she passing by my cubicle. OMG! I passed the choc to my sis so that she passed it to her. She really likes it though and i'm glad i did it.  ohhh today is a very busy day. I have lots of meeting and a lot of work to be done. How i wish i can work with her near her cubicle ~ LOL. Whatever it is, i should take it slow in knowing her. There is no need to rush right ? Love will comes eventually~ p.s. 15 days of getting to know her

Well i got to see her for the first time after 3 weeks, oh she is so cute with that purple shirt. First, i went to pick up the flowers that my friend ordered for me yesterday and put in the box. However, when i went there the funny thing is that the box is twice bigger than the bouquet. LOL. I went out again to find a proper bag to put the flowers. ahha I found it though but the roses still can be seen haha. She called me and said that she was nervous and asked if she can bring a friend to come together. So cute hiding under the blanket calling me just because she was nervous going on a date with me today. I said yes she can tag along just to let her feel comfortable. I went to Parkson and bought tickets for the movie Riddick for three. I brought the bouquet with me and kept it at the cashier that thinking of surprising her after the movie.  While waiting for them to come i went to the arcade and played all kind of games for about 40 minutes i think beating all those kids. LOL.

What happens when two friends go on a date? haha well i'm going to experience that tomorrow. She's a colleague of mine but in a different department. I just came back from offshore visit after 3 weeks and it have been really tiring. Lavinia sounds like Avril Lavigne hahah.. She got a cool name seriously. arghhh what to do what to do.. I am going out tomorrow. I bought a dozen of roses and put it in a box. I also bought a teddy bear hoping she would likes it. I'm giving her flowers because she said she haven't receive any flowers yet this year. I'm giving her teddy bear because she is like a kid and a cute one. I'm bringing my instax camera planning to take pictures tomorrow. Ergghh I'm too nervous and too excited about this. Oh Whyyy? Well this reminds me of a song. "If We'd Never Met" If we'd never met, I'd probably be  wandering aimlessly if we'd never met, this life, no I just wouldn't get what I wanted out of i

This is me now!

Tonight post is about memories..Something that i really don't like. I read all my past blogs and it seems that i should have continue blogging. It likes a life journal of mine. Anything particular that i do and share should be recorded somewhere. What happens if my future self 3 years later reading this ? Did i achieve what i want and what i plan to do?? i think i should write a letter to future me . 

Hi guys, I'm back. LOL. Its been quite sometime since i wrote something. I have been busy planning my life and how to go the point that i want to achieve in life. Well its been quite amazing how i manage to stand still with my principles in life even though some of it seems to change a bit. Well what should i talk aah?? I'm still thinking about what to do. Well i think i should update here anything i have in my mind. JUST want to say