I thought its over. I went to see a movie with her and one other friend. She picks me up and we talk in the car. We arrive there early and I thought that maybe the other friend is there already. However, actually there are only the two of us at the sushi king. I felt really nervous.. is it because I still have feelings for her. Omg! She paid for the movie and also for the sushi. We spend quite sometime there and I felt like we are on a date. The only reason im not being a gentlemen to her is because I don't want her to know that I still have feelings for her. Damn it. Why can't I say that I like her straight in the face. Uhhuhu. I said that for me agf and also a wife is different. I wonder if she understood what I meant. A girlfren is a wife. The reason its different is that I dont have any bond with her. In other words, when I think she as my gf I am serious and commited of marrying her. I wish she can read my mind. Urghhhhhhhhh!